I’m slowly but surely making smarter choices one at a time regarding what I consume. I have what I really want but skip on the carbs that will be on the menu just because. Next up: the G-Y-M. Oh yes and beginning my superfood regimen. It’s all just waiting on me. I often refer to myself as a Steele Magnolia. I need more of the metal. My goal is to lose half of me to get me back to the real me. Has this ever happened to you? I’m doing this thing. I will keep you posted. And now, I’m gonna do something crazy. Revealing the truth. Facing it so I can move on.
Today is the day. I begin. Truly looking in. Seeing what lies within and what in the hell I will be doing with the next year of my life.
I will get ME back. This much I can guarantee. Don’t mistake looking within for being selfish or self-centered. It’s not that at all. But this dancing princess has placed far too many other people’s lives and dreams before her own for TOOOOOO fucking long.
Let’s see…oh yes. Getting strong physically. Yes. That is where I begin. This written word is my promise to myself…never ever giving up my physical strength and the way I want to look to anyone again. I will …. only … look like ME from now on.
I have always been a creative being. And now, my first work in a long while….the creation of ME. You’re welcome to watch. But, what comes next is for me alone.
Watch out. This love is intense. Can be all-encompassing. Yield and you will reap the reward of breakfast in bed. Connect and you will receive enough energy to power your biggest dreams. Love and you will experience what always means. In the best and brightest ways. Take care of this precious treasure.
…Life sucks and then you die. This dancing indigo princess has been away for awhile. Can we just be honest? People really suck. Especially the ones you give your heart to and then they use it for chop suey. Years of giving and loving…cut away just like a faded blossom on my Granny’s favorite Lady Banks rosebush. Jeesch. Thanks. I needed that extra helping of suffering. Best friends. Loves. Yeah right. I guess the only thing left to say is “good night moon!”
Sometimes, we find ourselves caught in the middle. The middle of happy moments. The middle of “eat the apple” choices. The middle of the decisions which make the difference between living your dream or someone else’s.
I’m trying to remember to stop and relax into every moment. Be present, right then and there. Carefully and carefreely, I walk forward. One. Step. At. A. Time. Less judgment and more grace. More wisdom and less savvy. And as my Mama says…to mine own self…be true.
Into this life, a little bit of blue will surely seep. Just a question of when. Blue builds things. Blue drives people. Blue makes a way in the seemingly doomed and bedraggled circumstances of this old journey. Blue is strong. Blue is able. Blue knows how to ask for help. Blue reaches out into deep crevices unknown and holds on tight. This girl is thankful for the blue.
Well, the woman who helped raise me…I call her my big sister…SHE says to send the message that I have a life and DON’T need someone’s brand of nasty directed at me. And, in the end, my favorite advice: we all have a finite amount of energy for one day’s use…why waste it on anger and being offended by someone? Agreed. Energy taken back. Now where from here? Life’s loaded with turns and twists. I’m ready.
Welcome. Y’all. I’ve got some things to say. Stay tuned.